reflections.

randy . kaye . nani .

open letter.

so i was browsing th ' blogs that i usually read. th ' ones i follow. and one that's becoming one of my favorite blogs is 8 Day Weeks. this post really caught my eye cuhz it's like this particular blogger is reading my mind. i wish i could hit a retweet button like on twitter. but yeah you should visit th ' blog asap for some great reading.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

OpenLetter

Dear women across the world,

I firmly believe that you ladies degrade yourselves more than any man ever could. You go around calling yourselves " 5 star bitches ", and " a bad bitch ". You look up to Nicki Minaj but make fun of women like Lil Mama. You are in love with men like Plies, Gucci Mane, and Lil Wayne who constantly refer to you as bitches, hoes, and bust it babies. But wait of course there not referring exactly to you, right? For instance, that would be like me listening to Rush Limbaugh radio show faithfully every morning but saying when he makes racist statements he's not talking about me. A extreme comparison? I could live with that. Correspondingly, I think many women forgot that they have the thing every single man loves; a VAGINA! Instead of using it to your advantage, you end up sleeping with him on the first night. What does he think of you now, definitely wife material! To sum up what I'm getting at here is every second, every day more and more women are degrading themselves, lowering their standards. Maybe this is why the good guys are overlooked because the pig is what women are becoming accustomed to. I guess its not 1970 anymore.

Sincerely,

HerFavBlogger

P.S. This is not referring to every women on earth, calm down.

Read : 8 Day Weeks

th ' cypher.

mos def, black thought and EMINEM.so dope.anybody that says that Eminem can not rap is lying to themselves. ahh geez. my favorite rapper. handssssss down.

i can transform ya.

trying.

“I’m just trying to get back to what really matters. I’m trying to search my soul to find out what I’m after, but the more I find my voice the more they try to make it harder.”

- Talib Kweli

it's so hard to be yourself and do your thing in a world where people just try to take you down. instead of people helping other people, there's people plotting to bring them down. it's like i try my hardest to be th ' best that i can be and it's not enough for people.

good girls go bad

i'm so obsessed with this song.

still i rise.

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I’ll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
‘Cause I walk like I’ve got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I’ll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don’t you take it awful hard
‘Cause I laugh like I’ve got gold mines
Diggin’ in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I’ll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I’ve got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history’s shame
I rise
Up from a past that’s rooted in pain
I rise
I’m a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

- Maya Angelou

in vain.

“Love, so many people use your name in vain. Love, those who have faith in you sometimes go astray. Love, through all the ups and downs the joys and hurts. Love, for better or worse I still will choose you first.”

- Musiq Soulchild

don't underestimate me.

---- float like a butterfly, sting like a bee.

i'm th ' nicest person you could ever meet. but i'll be quick to defend myself or th ' people close to me. that's just how it is.

deeper.

“ Talk about a man’s lips. Talk about a man’s hands. Talk about a man’s eyes. Talk about a woman’s lips. Talk about a woman’s breasts. Talk about a woman’s thighs. Those are things so beautiful, but is there more than physical? Isn’t love much deeper? ”

- Chrisette Michele

strawberry milshake.

mmm. i love this product. philosophy's three-in-one strawberry milkshake product is a bath gel, body wash and shampoo. it's a must have in my shower and it just smells so damn good and keeps me smelling damn good at th ' same time.

what happened to a phone call?

whatever happened to talking on th ' phone? i used to be able to spend hours on th ' phone with a person and now i only talk to people for a quick minute. it's such a shame cuhz sometimes i miss those long talks. it's been such a long time since i've been able to have a good conversation over th ' phone. i remember in high school we used to have everybody three way somebody so that there would be a whole lot of people in on th ' conversation. i miss that.

death of th ' phone call started with texting. i have had so many conversations over text messages. like damn. ran up so many phone bills that my mom almost beat my ass over how much we'd go over th ' monthly bill. i could text without looking at th ' phone.

then came AIM. it's texting on th ' computer. plus you can do AIM as many people as you want. have chatrooms so that everybody can talk to each other at once. i know people who don't even talk on th ' phone. they just tell people to aim them. people ask each other for aims instead of numbers these days. smh.

now th ' sidekick to AIM and texting to another level. a computer and a phone in one. you can aim and text. and God knows that I have spent hours on a sidekick having conversations. from th ' sidekick 2 to th ' sidekick LX 09. i was on my sidekick constantly. and after all these years I started to despise my sidekick. just everything about it. but most of all AIM. so much drama happens on mother fucking AIM that I had to say goodbye to th ' sidekick.

hello blackberry curve 8520. i got to say i'm in love with this phone. and AIM on here will never live up to sidekick AIM so i'm on it less. i only really use AIM to talk to one person who doesn't talk on th ' phone. but th ' texting and twittering on this phone is at an all time high. i couldn't get away from it if i tried. but i really just miss actual phone calls. that's th ' point of this whole blog.

those late night, all night phone calls. i remember them fondly. but now i'm picky about who i want to conversate with. some people just call you at th ' wrong time or get on your nerves on th ' phone. then there are th ' people that don't say anything on th ' phone and just waste your time. i guess that's why texting, AIM, bbl, yahoo, twitter, and myspace or so popular. if you don't want to speak to a person then you don't have to answer.

there are just times when i want to say fuck all that and just talk on th ' phone tho. you feel me?

one of those nights.

i hate those nights when you feel down and out all of a sudden. you're just alone, with nothing to occupy your mind besides those thoughts that you put in back of your head. all th ' things that you try your hardest not to think about. but then you got those nights. those nights when there's nothing to occupy your mind and your time. it's just one of those nights.

and i cant.

i can't stop thinking about you.

days turn into nights.

nani. cousin.

randy. best friend.

lakewood mall.

applebees.

good times.

great times.

my mentality.

i've been called strange. i've been called weird. i've been called different. and i like it. i'd rather not be like everybody else and run with th ' crowd. i tried that and it just didn't even work out. i can fit in everywhere and nowhere at th ' same time. i get along with pretty much everybody. i wish i could be liked by everybody but i've realized that not anybody can like you. i'm all over th ' place tho. people ask to describe my personality to them and that'll take too long. there's so many sides of me. mild case of being bi-polar perhaps? i'm probably th ' nicest person that you can meet but i have a low tolerence for ignorance and will be quick to tell a person off. some people will tell you i'm really laid back but then other people can tell you that i'm anal about things. i clean up at other peoples houses but i'm too lazy to clean my own. i'm honest and blunt but i don't speak my mind unless asked or provoked. i love to be in love but i love being single. i'm not clingy in relationships but will show my partner my love. i dont give a fuck sometimes and sometimes i'll give too much. i observe people a lot and i can tell that i'm not like them at all. and i hear a lot of people saying that they're different but are really just like everybody else.

so why would i tell a person that i'm different?

i'd rather prove it.

and i do. every. single. time.

th ' nineties.

i swear i love th ' nineties. although i wasn't born in th ' decade, i was sure raised a nineties baby. these are a few of my favorite things that th ' nineties has brought th ' world.

there's still more. watch out for : th ' nineties _ part two.

ten things i hate about you.

I hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car,
I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.

I hate it… I hate the way youre always right,
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when youre not around,
and the fact that you didnt call.
But mostly I hate the way I dont hate you,
not even close
not even a little bit,
not even at all.

til i die.

#beatthebasic.

damn you twitter. making your way into my everyday conversations and now onto my blog. well this trending topic came up a couple days ago. and i did two or three because i don't like exhasting trending topics like other people. anyways i had way more shit to say about beating th ' basic. but wait? what does #beatthebasic mean? i feel that it means that you have to stop doing whatever eveybody else is doing if that's not you. if you're following something because it's trendy then it's not going to work for you. being comfortable in your own skin is what's best. and then there are all those basic things that people do that get on my nerves cuhz i don't know why people are so into it. being an indiviual is dead. people just want to be basic.

#beatthebasic:

• stop jerking. people are overdoing it.
• females, stop referring yourselves to bitches.
• stop talking about your money when you still get it from your mom.
• stop quoting gucci mane.
• my preference: not too skinny, not too baggy jeans.
• stop falling in love with a different person every other day.

that's just a few that been running through my mind. sorry if this offends anybody but it's just what i think. but being th ' opposite of basic is being unique. and i'd rather be unique and be called weird or not fit in with people then just be like everybody else.

alicia keys - doesn't mean anything

beautiful song.beautiful woman.alicia keys is amazing.

i . L . L .

iChatting with keezy daddy.

check his blog out ; www.illboss.blogspot.com

consequences of a boring saturday night.

ahh shit. i have no life. home alone. bored.

up in my room, just me and my mac book.

anyone else but you.

too fucking cute.

j.cole - losing my balance.

teach me how to dougie.

this song has been stuck in my head for days now. and
i love it. i'd rather do my dougie than jerk.

california swag district.
check out their myspace.
myspace.com/californiaswagdistrict

hahaha.

Juno: I knew this girl who like had this crazy freak out because she took too many behavioral meds at once and she like ripped off her clothes, and dove into the fountain at Ridgedale Mall and was like, “Blah I am a Kracken from the sea!”

Su-Chin: I heard that was you.

if you've never seen th ' movie Juno yet then get on it.

this movie is hilarious.

past.

" ... it's called th ' past cuz i'm getting past,

and i ain't nothing like i was before.

you should see me now ... "

that's what i was saying.

So if you haven't heard or read th ' hottest mc list of 2009 that MTV released here it is.

#10- Raekwon

#9- 50 Cent

#8- Fabolous

#7- Young Jeezy

#6- Gucci Mane

#5- Rick Ross

#4- Kanye West

#3- Drake

#2- Lil Wayne

#1- Jay-Z

Jay-Z decided to throw his two cents in and said what is exactly on my mind and on a lot of other peoples mind. THANK YOU. That's why he's one of th ' G.O.A.

MTV, Thanx for this nod of appreciation. Although I don’t strive to be ‘hot’ for any particular year, I thank you for the acknowledgment. My whole goal is to be recognized as the best ever. I created the term ‘best rapper alive’ as a sign of respect to my fallen comrades (Biggie and Tupac). I believe I’ve allowed a significant grace period, and I believe I would not be respecting myself if being the absolute best was not my goal, and that’s why I continue to push myself until exhaustion … salute.

Sidebar: Kanye moment if I may … Eminem?!?! I think you do the credibility of this list a disservice if you don’t thoroughly explain his omission. As of this second he has the highest selling rap album of the year and a scene stealing verse on the best ‘posse’ cut of the year . (*Hands mic back to Taylor Swift … and nobody was harmed, I apologize in advance.)

That's what i was saying tho.

we belong together.

So I was listening to th ' Emanicipation of Mimi tonight and I had to play this song over and over again. I sung along and tried to hit high notes like Mariah, which of course didn't work. I tried tho. Haha. Anyways this song is one of my favorite Mariah Carey songs if not my favorite.

What happened to this Mariah Carey? She used to be one of my favorite singers but as of late she's been falling off. I swear, she makes me feel heartbroken when I'm not even heartbroken. And singing sessions in th ' car to her music are th ' best times. She needs to get emanicpated again.

sex and lies.

" ... Even though I ain't a virgin

that don't mean i'm having sex with you. "

These days a lot of guys expect you to have sex with them. And if you don't they'll say 'Are you a virgin?' , 'You're scared.' , 'You couldn't handle anyways.' or 'You're a fucking tease.' . The answer varies when you deny a guy sex.

How about this tho?

I'm not a virgin, I just don't want to have sex with you.

I'm not scared, you're just not worth it.

I can handle it more than you know, but you won't ever find out.

I'm a teaser not a pleaser.

A lot of guys are way too cocky these days. They think that you're just supposed to open your legs for them and then make up excuses when you refuse to. Maybe sex is just something important to me and i don't want to have sex with just anybody. I feel like there has to be something more between me and a person then just physical attraction. Sex is great. And it's fucking fantastic when it's with somebody that you really care about. I've done th ' whole one night stand thing, and when it's just physical it wasn't good to me. So first date sex? Not going to happen with me. Other girls may do it, but I don't.

By the way, I hear a lot of guys complain that a girl is too easy. But then they want a girl to give it up right away and get mad when she doesn't. What's up with that? That confuses me.

Another thing that bugs me about guys expecting sex is when exboyfriends try to get back in your bed. So my whole thing is that we've been there and we've done that. You had your chance and you lost it. So now you think that because we had sex before that it's going to happen again? Well that's an error on your part. That's just how I feel. You can't live in th ' past.

rant ; laker haters.

Today was th ' Lakers first preseason game. Of course they smashed on th ' Golden State Warriors. And did you see that Shannon Brown dunk? ( That's my baby! Hahaha. ) Anyways my phone was buzzing cuhz of twitter updates. There was a lot of tweets about th ' Lakers, good and bad. So i'm kind of sick of having to defend my love for th ' Los Angeles Lakers. You really want to challenge th ' greatness of my favorite NBA team? Excuse me? 2009 World Champions. That says something. So i'm sorry that your favorite team isn't as great as th ' Lakers or you think Lebron is God's gift to th ' NBA, because I don't. I've been a Laker fan since th ' day I was born. I practically bleed purple and gold. I remember having th ' biggest crush on Nick Van Exel when he was on th ' Lakers.

That was before Kobe Bryant came into my vision and was knocked out my Shannon Brown. Anyways, I have gotten into too many arguments with people who hate on th ' Lakers. If you know me then you know I'm a pretty laid back person. Talking shit about my team is my hot button tho. I get so passionate about defending them. Almost like I'm a different person. People want to talk so much shit about th ' Lakers when they win. People can't just let it go. They won th ' fucking championship and people still talk shit. It's a shame. But really to come at me with some stupid shit gets on my nerves. I get tired of arguing all th ' time. I love my Lakers and I always will. So people need to understand that and just let me love my team and not talk shit to me. I think it's fucking retarded when people talk shit when a team does great. Who says a team sucks when they just fucking won? I'm going to ride with my Lakers and you can root for whatever team you want to. That's not going to change. So get th ' fuck over it.