want vs. have .

i always want something i can't have.

i put myself in bad situations . bad situations that could result in me having a broken heart ... again . but i want something so bad . i feel like i have to have that something . cuz i've found something so worth going through this ... confusion , that would hurt too much to lose . it would happen to me right ? finding something i've wanted for so long and it just being out of my reach . i feel like screaming sometimes cuz th ' situation is constantly on my mind .

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .

fml .